Graduated Cylinder

So school let out-- I still can't believe it, honestly. My mind's reeling that the nine month mark is up and my life is totally different than originally planned. Funny how that works, hm? It looks like I am going to be staying in California until further notice. There's no way it's time to leave this culture; I feel like there is still a lot more to learn and that my roots have dug in to this ground a bit. However, one's hometown is always half home (pun intended) so I will certainly be back in Texas for several weeks. I couldn't miss July 4th with family just yet, so I'll make it just in time.

My roommates and I are moving to a bigger apartment, which will be really nice space-wise, but with some recent financial challenges with my car, it's getting to be a pretty huge thing. As always, agree with supernatural provision in my life. Starbucks is not my provider but it is a means of provision, so my hours should drastically increase sometime soon. It is odd to see my life jumping back into cardboard, even if it's only for a very short migration (we're staying in the same complex). The feeling of completion is greatly appreciated and I even enjoy the "starting over" setup, but it's this in-between bit that makes me feel a little shaky and always sends me on an introspective spiral. This time, though, I am not questioning self, just flipping through the pages of life.

Growth continues as I learn what it is to trust, what it is to make decisions, what it is to be responsible and accountable, what it is to love by staying in love when I can nearly believe that I can run my life. Papa is here for me and takes care of me, offering me the chance to be faithful especially when it's not demanded.

Prayer request: I'm really seeking guidance on the 2nd year or Shasta College decision (which, incidentally, could be made for me pending my acceptance into BSSM).